*** 5 more days until the beach trip  ***

so i read this one convo. that i had saved on my laptop from the past.  just looking back at all the things i've said on there just made me realize how selfish i sounded.  i just wanted to keep that one thing that used to make me real happy and i kept on holding on.. thinking only about myself.  but as i was reading.. i kindah felt like a dickhead for trying to hold on to what's not meant for me ya kno'?  i wanted to persevere and i believed with all the trying, things could get better.. ya' know?!  but obviously and unfortunately, the outcome was different. 

yes, we do make mistakes in our lives and alot of them and what is left to do is to make things better and try not to make the same mistakes again.  by reading this entry don't think i'm regretting everything from the past cuz it's left alot of wonderful memories.  i'm just regretting all the wrongs i've caused.   so basically, i'm looking back at my past experiences and realizing how "blind?!" (i guess that's the word?!) i was.  i wish i could have seen this earlier, but i was too into "it". 

i'm going to continue to pray that God will really mold me into a better person and honestly, i felt that i was drifting away from him from all of this.  hopefully i'll change into a better being.  And i hope to sooner or later lead ppl towards the right path.. instead of falling with them....

well have a great day!!   

haha... so as of today, work is closed for all of next week.  it was originally planned to be closed only for the 2nd thru the 4th.. but we thought it's better off just closing for the rest of the week since there's hardly anyone going to show up for classes since it's the Independence holiday.

wooooo hooooo!!! 

*** 6 MORE DAYS and we're off to the beach!!  ***

so how's everyone else doin'??  

so i'm sitting here with many thoughts going in and out of my head.  not neccessarily bad thoughts but good ones as well.  i've been trying to keep myself occupied tonight whether it's watching a movie, reading a book or even just laying there pondering about the past while listening to music...(music helps me think..haha)  And tonight... i kept myself off the phone from talking to ppl so i could have time for myself you know?!  so yeah but for some reason my fingers want some excercise.  lol.  i was going to write in this one notebook but i found all these letters that i wrote to my last gf and i just stopped with the writing after reading all the things i've written.  haha it's not bad at all.. it just made me reminisce even more about the past.  lol  yeah yeah i miss it but 'so what' right?!  hahah  so instead of writing.. i decided to type to keep away from all that.  everytime i looked thru different notebooks i found more and more letters.. if not that, then it was doodling of her name.  haha  speaking of which.. i'm feeling that my life is getting better as time progresses.  i've been doing more outside of work and experiencing alot of new things suchas...

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SO.. i'm looking forward to the beach trip in july.. and guess what?!  only less than 2 more weeks left!!  HAH!!  it's so exciting just thinking about it.  I'm planning on going parasailing this time since I didn't go the last time when I had the chance to.. but back then I didn't want to go by myself.. i wanted to save that time parasailing with that significant other.. but since i might not get another chance for it (parasailing)... i'm planning on riding with the wind.  okay, i'm retarded.  BUTTT if all fails, it's all "G" cuz i'm away from home and spending time with all my cuzN's and that's the main fun right durr.  wooooo hooooo!!  I can smell the banana boat right now *sigh*.. oh daym.. hahahah wait.. maybe it's b/c it's right next to me?!  lol..  

Speaking of cousin's.. my cousin's are the sh*t!!!  i don't think i can ever ask for better one's.  I know that whatever comes up.. i'm always going to be there for them.  we might have our disagreements at times.. but at the end we're always supporting and lovin' eachotha' ya' know?!  hey.. what are families... i meant COUSIN's for??? haha jk..     So back to the beach trip... yes!  back to it.. we're planning on leaving the 1st of July and coming back da' 4th... which isn't long enough.. but it's better than nothing so i'm not complaining too much.  I just hope time will slow down when we get there.  lol don't we all. 
alright well i'm out for now.. but i'll be back with some more thoughts latah.  haha dat's fo' daRn shure!! 

payCe & God BleSs! 

Edit::::  what up..??? I jus' got done watchin' one of Taebins video.. and it was pretty cool.. and it pretty much had a lot of meaning to it!  Esp. fo' ppl who are in love right now... like if anyone's in a relationship.. you should always tell eachother how much y'all care for eachother and neva' try NOT to work all y'allz problems out!  I know some relationships might have a lot of tension b/w two ppl.. but they still love eachother and they don't even wanna try and work things out!  But if both of you puts forth da' effort and love eachother as much.. then y'all will take da' chance to go thru all da' twists and turns of da' problem and fix them to where y'all are happy again!  One last thing... if you don't tell eachother how much y'all care and jus' fight all da time.. "what if that day u fought and said those terrible things were da' last day for them and also da' last day for you???"  then what are you goin' to do...

aim.. convo.... w/ a friend... check da' heart out.. it's tyte...  haha^^,

jEnNluvsU: u suck daniel!!!

Dpplayer69: am i supposed to be feeling emotional cuz you told me I sucked???  haha.. yeeah right!

jEnNluvsU: you are soo mean!!!

Dpplayer69:  iight.. why don't you jus' tell me off tonight.. jus' say everything u need to say.. LOL!

jEnNluvsU: u are such a bastard, an A-hole,

Dpplayer69: feel bettah???  HHahahahaha!

jEnNluvsU:  shut up!!!  i'm not finished!!!  lmao!  um.. ur just plain up STUPID! 

Dpplayer69:  guess what??? 

jEnNluvsU:  wat!!!

Dpplayer69: or actually.. am I supposed to be crying right now?  Cuz I don't feel a need to!  haha!

jEnNluvsU:  u know what.. go to HELL!!!

Dpplayer69: nah I rather stay here thank you very much..! 

jEnNluvsU: LOL.. u're such a PUNK u know that??? hehe.. butttttttttttt...,

jEnNluvsU: I still....

jEnNluvsU: Look....

Dpplayer69: WHAT!!!

jEnNluvsU: 

Dpplayer69: hahah.. aw thanx.. but you know you still suck!!!  haha.. jp jp jp!!!

jEnNluvsU: you're such a GREAT friend!!! :)

Dpplayer69: dat's tyte tho'.. did you send that to ur bf yet???

jEnNluvsU: actually... no I didn't send it to him!

Dpplayer69: what??? u're supposed to send that sh*t to him first!  

jEnNluvsU: O WELL!!!  lol!

Dpplayer69:  ooooo u cheating on ur bf.. haha!  you better not cuz I'll have to kick your A$$ if you do.. cuz that's my boy!  haha jp! but you better not cheat on his butt! 

jEnNluvsU: Shut UP daniel!  u're just jealous cuz i gave you a piece of my heart and you didn't!!!

Dpplayer69: um.. jealous???  um I don't think so.. I don't think I want to give you a piece of mine, cuz you might tear it up!  LOL! 

jEnNluvsU: like I said... YOU ARE SOOO MEAN!!!

Dpplayer69: O WELL!!!  sound familiar??? haha jp!

jEnNluvsU: you know damn well I won't cheat on my bf!!!

Dpplayer69: um.. him being with you??? um I don't know!  lol!  iight iight I'm jus' playin'.. don't get mad! 

jEnNluvsU: WHAT!!!  ur's ass better not show up at school tomorrow!  

Dpplayer69: haha

jEnNluvsU: JUS KIDDING!!!  u'll probably kick everyones butt that I get on you!  fer shere!  lmao!  but don't touch my hubby!

Dpplayer69: what that punk??? lol jp!                                                          

SOMEONE ONCE ASKED JESUS,"LORD HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME?"  JESUS ANSWERED HIM,"THIS MUCH" AND SPREAD HIS ARMS OUT ON THE CROSS AND DIED... 

iight well I have nothin' much to say.. so I'm jus' gonna take my time to holla' @ everyone...

ShOuTs.......

GrAcE.. 2 my one and onlie sista!  haha.. thanx fo' everything you've done for me in da' passed.. and don't forget that I'll always be der for you 100%!  Fo' Sho'!  So what Chinese Zodiac were you again?  *WoOF*  LOL!  haha jp!

JoSh & SaM... what up dudes... jus' remember I'll be there for you guys all da' time.. and if y'all ever need anything jus' holla' at me iight?  And hopefully y'all are doin' good with everything and esp.. school..!  Don't eva' give up iight?  And don't become one of those CrAcK "Bah BoHs"  haha fo' sho'! 

TiNa & JiHaE.... what's up???  I hope everythings goin' great for you guys as well!  And if y'all ever need anything give me a shout iight?  Cuz I'll be there thru all da' good times and bad times.. and if y'all need me to beat some dudes ass cuz they broke y'allz heart.. then let me know!  haha.. i'm serious!  ^^,  ahl myun suh!  But yeah.. and Tina.. You still suck.. cuz you got da' car I wanted.. but it's all good..(it's not like I could afford it) haha.. and Jihae.. be good in school!  ^^,

JaMiE & AnGeLa... thanx fo' ALWAYS bein' der for me thru both good times and bad times!  you guys have been there fo' me ever since I was born and I can never thank God enough for puttin' me with da' family that has 2 cousin's like you for me to turn to and look up to!  but no matter what.. I'll always try my best to do whatever I can to help y'all out.. but I can definitely promise that I'll always be here for you two! 

ViNnY & BrIaN.... what up.. I jus' wanna let you guys know that I'm really grateful to have y'all in my life now.. and I kno' y'all are great fo' da' family.. so no matter what happens.. I'll be der to help!  So Holla'!

HaNnAh KiM... thanx fo' listenin' to every word I have to say on~line.. even tho' I might be a pain sometimes and weird.. but thanx anyways.. and of course I'll always be here to listen to whatever you need to say also!  haha.. maybe we can actually TALK next time!  lol.. isn't that right My one n onlie Pimpette!  Fo' Sho'!  iight holla @ me anytime!!!

HaNnAh Yi.... thank you for helping me get thru some tough times.. and u know you can hollar at me wheneva'.. cuz I'll be here to listen to you!  Fo' Sho'!  Well hopefully everythings goin' great for you!  Oh yeah.. WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR MOVIE HUH??? haha... you know it's your fault NOW.. haha well hopefully soon then!  Latah! 

CrYsTaL... Thanx fo' listenin' to everything I need to say whenever I do say it!  And all your comments do help!  Thanx.. holla' at me when you need anything!

BeN...  what up... u kno'.. "once a bro' always a bro"  neva' fo'get that iight?  haha.. iight well you know we'll always be brotha's thru my eyes!  haha.. holla!

JuLiE.... hey what up hoe!  haha.. you know me well enough to know that I'm kiddin right?  haha but not da' HOE part tho'!  jp jp jp!  Fo' Sho'!  Well I guess I'll be der for you when you need it also!  I'm GUESSIN'!  LOL... jus' give me some time to think about it!  I just MIGHT be der!  haha JP.. iight well hollar baQ!!!  Latah!

JiN DoNg SaEnG... what up.. you know I have to give you shout too.. cuz you're one of my fav. dong saengs.. haha ahl myun suh!  Well I hope everythings goin' better for you.. and of course I'll be here if you ever need anything.. no doubt.. so hollaaar @ meeh whenever iight???  Ahl Myun Suh!!!!!!!

iight well I'm done shouting fo' now.. but if I left you out.. too bad!  haha.. jus' holla and I'll see what I can do!!!  ><,